I spent my entire
adult life fighting my addiction to nicotine. I quit for years,
only to capitulate to what felt like "need". I remained
a "smoker" in my mind, and any excuse in my life would
send me right back to the NRTs (lozenges and gum) and eventually
to cigarettes. I was in a self-defeating cycle in which I never
got past the addiction to nicotine. It was frustrating, and
I felt like a failure and a liar.
I came to this quit
with the determination that this was it- I was done. I was fearful.
I didn't want to fall into the trap of substituting other things
for smoking- food, alcohol etc- that I've fallen into before.
But I wanted nicotine out of my life- not just cigarettes. That
meant a new mindset, because obviously the old one wasn't working
As always the first
few weeks were easy- the sense of freedom and success took me
past the initial struggle. Then I hit my famous "wall"-
I felt overwhelmed and unable to focus, and was panicked. Luckily,
at that moment, I was in a chatroom on the Quitnet. I started
talking about my symptoms to a guy who "walked me down
from the cliff". He explained that what I was going through
was normal, and that there are simple techniques to help me
through the process. Something that was clear, direct and stopped
the panic without false aids, narcotics, food or anything. It
had to do with paying attention to myself. So simple, but something
we all struggle with in life. He paid attention, and he stayed
with me through the process. Steve worked with me for a very
short time to get the techniques down, and I was amazed by the
Nine months later,
I know clearly that I will never go back, it's just not an option.
I directly credit my success this time to cognitivequitting,
which has given me simple techniques to deal with stress in
life way beyond quitting.
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